To my home and one true love:
It's that time of year again. That time of year that makes me feel so homesick and lovelorn every single time without fail. Of course, 2 other times of the year make me miss you badly too i.e. Thanksgiving + the Playoffs but today and right now this seems a most indescribable pain and longing 😔
I spent the happiest years of my life with you. I was a child then, who knew nothing of real world sufferings - stumbled into your universe trying to escape a past of rejection by the swine of the land i lived in. The lifetime I spent being overlooked, invisible, too ugly, too anti-establishment, not subservient enough, too visionary, too perfectionist for my own good, you immediately cured the moment I breathed your air ❤
My most fulfilling, wholesome, meaningful relationships ever in this lifetime, I had with your men who were wise, handsome, caring, giving, loving and sweet beyond compare. They may not have been as highly-educated as I, but they had achieved success in their own small ways through good ol fashioned hard work and not because they were sons of has-been politicians or because they were part of some family dynasty firms... and I respected them deeply for it. They brought me fishing in the mountains, took me to see the 4th fireworks, welcomed me to their summer cottages out by the country lakes, catered to my dietary restrictions as though it were as simple as dealing with food allergies, made me laugh, bought me ice cream by the pier where we sat to chat and watch the summer ferries for hours, asked me to marry them (more than once!), bought me rings with their hard-earned money 💍, picked me flowers in the woods, took me horseback riding over treacherous terrain, let me wear your Navy uniform(s) to pander to my military obsession, brought me for my first ball game at Safeco back when the Mariners were perfect as a team, engaged my heart &mind in ways I've never experienced with anyone here. Way back before "interracial" was a 'thing', you were already beautifully colour-blind and valued me for the amazing, indomitable, unjaded, wholesome, principled and upright person I was.
I miss you so much. ❤ #happy4th